unexpectedly worse

i did the GRE biology subject test the second time last december 2004, hoping to pass with flying colors to strengthen my application. today i received the result and totally out of my expectation, i did a lot worse than the first time.

maybe the others did better, but i also didn't do well on my part. well, i expected since it was my second time, i would by all means do better. i was definitely relaxed and felt okay-prepared. i expected not being able to finish the entire exam and i was more certain on the questions i answered. however the report came back saying the opposite. how can one trust their instinct in tests? my golden rule has been that the worse i thought of it, the better it would come out. in a way, it's sad because i am so "out of control". but afterall, it's what's on the paper that's important...even sadder?

anyhow, it's not a big deal. i don't really need it for most schools anyways, but i hope that the second set of score would not hurt me too much. i can again apply my golden rule,"think about the worst scenerio and i will be fine". wish me luck~