one trouble of not having a boyfriend

i think it would be very funny to note what happened today:
i was talking to a friend/co-worker after hours today in an imaging room, which had minimal red lighting. this friend/co-worker is a physical therapist besides being a research scientist and a lecturer. as we were talking/hanging out, i requested a therapy (massage) for my chronic shoulder pain. all of a sudden, our boss walked in, which wasn't a problem except he looked at us funny and said "what are you guys doing?".

to make things worse, this was the 2nd time it happened. however the first time was at a different lab room where we both worked on the microscope all day counting cells and we exchanged backrubs right there in the public.

it was so weird that he looked at us like that, but what should be done? it's okay for the friend as she's leaving soon, but i am staying for a while longer. i can just imagine what's going on in his mind...

this is funny, and a bit troublesome...but it should make a good joke no matter what.

rejection #6 & #7-- univ of virginia, univ of pittsburgh

a while back i wrote to university of virginia and university of pittsburgh.

a while back i learned about the rejection from university of virginia. today, i received the rejection letter from univ of pittsburgh.

i don't feel sad. it's okay now =)

a dream came true

mom came visit this past weekend and we went skydiving for our first times.

the experience was splendid-- it was beyond words can describe. part of it was because it was so short that i could barely remember the process. but it was a life time for mom, she said. it's amazing how each person experiences differently, though all was good.

i need to do it again and again in order to feel more. what i remember most was the couple minutes when me and my guide (who was attached right on my back) were hanging our legs by the door of the plane, waiting to take our jump. he was looking for something-- the right timing and speed and height etc, which i had no idea of. the minute right before we lifted ourselves off the plane was most unforgettable for me. everything after that was cool, in super fast or slow motion and then the end came. landing was smooth, smoother than jumping off a one-foot high stage. all was awesome, the people, the scenery (didn't realize Davis was quite pretty before then) and the weather. i would definitely do it more often when i have money. right now, i only have guts but no money. (it's better than the other way around, i guess)

on the day of April 16th, 2005, not only one of my many dreams came true, but one of mom's many dreams--our common dream--came true as well.

mom, thanks for doing it with me. it meant the world to me to have done it with you. but--it's only the beginning. we will be doing more fun things in the future, including anah and shital! we just have to organize it.

after the "jump", i can't help to think "sky is the limit". all of a sudden, it seems like all things are possible. i hope this spirit will last for a long long time...

acceptance & funding #1 -- for sure now

suddenly i got really busy. march 30th i received the good news that i got accepted to the medical college of georgia. i was at work when i received the email. the news fell on me as if the first time i saw snow fallen from the sky. i was truely excited. i couldn't help myself to read through the first paragraph twice to be sure of the news, but i never completed reading the whole email until after i told all the important people at work. i was overjoyed!

it was a symbol of freedom and relief. it felt like i could finally come out of my cocoon. it felt like coming out of the jail and i could start all over. it's hard for people to understand me because i felt terribly of how i did in my last two years of college. and with that, my dream fell apart and the road to the future just seemed ever lastingly winding. it felt as if there was no turning back.

but i learn...i learn much about life--how to cope with unplanned events in life. i realize what living really is. of course i haven't experienced all about life or i had nothing close to the worst of life, but i could imgaine and picture what life is about. and with everyday's learning, i hope to make it with strength, pride and dignity. 25 years have past, and i wish to make the rest of my everyday count. i hope i don't only make it just for me, but for you too, all of my friends and my loving family.

today, april 9, i received the notification from MCG that i will be fully funded for the 1st year and receive a full tuition waiver. until this very moment, i know for sure going to graduate school is happening for me. though i am still waiting to hear from 2 other schools, i have this offer in hand, i am happy and i feel blessed. but i can't resist wanting to know more about what else is coming my way. it's getting hard for me to wait. i lost my patience as i grow older...but i am excited, very excited!